I was 12 years old when I lost my virginity to my boyfriend who was also 12. Almost a year after we were going out and having sex we decided one time was not going to hurt. Well, it did, we were stupid to think that. We told my mother and we all decided it would be best to have an abortion, because we were so young, very young. I went to the clinic and I was told I was almost 12 weeks. I thought “man almost 4 months.” They told me that after 4 months they would not be able to do it so I went in 3 days before my 13th birthday. They put me to sleep; I remember waking up and hearing a vacuum like sound and it hurt very much. To this day I am glad I went to my mother to get her help. My mother was not a very good mother to me because I was not wanted but she still had me and I did not want to do that to my own kid. I would have one when I was ready. 3 months later that boyfriend had cheated on me and he had another girl pregnant. I guess some things do happen for a reason. I could not see myself being a single mother at 13. I am 24 now and 3 years ago I had a wonderful little girl. The odd thing is I got pregnant with her the same month I got pregnant the first time but 8 years later. I feel that God did this to let me know that he may not have approved of it but he still loves me no matter what choice I made.
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